i think it started with the chat with mark above the fish pond- it's been a long time since i've been so forthcoming about the topic, especially when it's something that i've been foolishly avoiding all this while. it's about time i faced up to it and rise to the challenge, no?

then bumping into brenda and denise, more pandan valley kids who have made it beyond our shores. if only that were me too.

and then meeting rachel and darren today, and talking briefly again about life abroad.

and now, more crucial than ever, dear velda comes along with the most hypnotic words: "pomona's beauutiful"

finally someone who seems to know, who seems to understand: "yah go for it!!! call them. i know the feeling of inertia you have now... but things might start happening once that's gotten over eh?"

so i have decided, that im gonna translate this fear, this hesitation, this inertia into something useful, forceful. im gonna do myself a favour and stop bumming around under the heavily guised pretext of army and what not.

i know i want this. and even though i think of the possibility of disappointment even before it all, i know i'd be even more disappointed with myself if i didn't try.

so here it is, and now it begins :]

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