Mot, Myself and Me Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato. Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar
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Saturday, June 07, 2008
evangeline mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: what do u do when u feel like uve so much pent up...energy? Auftragstaktik says: run haha depends if its mental energy or physical restlessness mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: ah! both lah Auftragstaktik says: well sometimes when i think i'm thinking too much i write stuff write down some of my thoughts on stuff i read and such or i do math problems or i run or i find projects to do mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: u are something amazing - mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha Auftragstaktik says: i dunno i envy you your life is so exciting! haha you're like doing all that stuff going places haish haha mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: ]; dont say that i think, i dont have any direction in mine i have fun moments, all over the place, but i dont really know where i belong sometimes i don't deserve envy, no. but i do hope that we keep in touch years from now Auftragstaktik says: mm direction is overrated anyway i mean maybe you should just have fun and live in the moment and not think about the future too much : ) cheer up in the end, you'll deal with it when you need to deal with it future planning's for old soon to be retirees anyway mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: hmmm yeah but you know, sometimes when u enjoy the moment, the following moments are even more, quiet. when the music suddenly stops, you suddenly feel more alone than before. and it's scary Auftragstaktik says: hmm well then i guess in those moments what you should do is look forward to the next ones mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: i think that's why one fine night last year i smsed you saying how alone i was. i apologize, it was such impulse, such emo nonsense, but i cant help but feel i still have a long way to go in that respect Auftragstaktik says: haha hey i liked that not that you were lonely la but that you considered me enough of a friend to tell me that haha it isnt emo nonsense but yea i guess we all feel lonely at this point in our life its the Hormones mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha the big H. well of course ure a friend, enough cant even begin to quantify it. i dont think we can, quantify it, that is. Auftragstaktik says: well mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: but i have to admit, it helped a little that we weren't super close as well, because it made the coming forth so much easier Auftragstaktik says: yea that was what i was about to say sometimes its good to talk to a stranger or people you dont know too well i mean at the very least you wont have to worry about them possibly judging you or what they'll think of you ; ) mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: sometimes, when u think u know someone too well, you really don't. yeah. i know. i knew about something like that once, a few years ago. but now it's not about pple judging me, i think i dont care to some extent anymore. and even when i do, it would be so much more, obvious. i don't care to hide my insecurities so much anymore. it's too tiresome. Auftragstaktik says: haha then you're a better person than i am mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: (gosh coldplay really plays the mood) Auftragstaktik says: somehow i think i'm still always worried about how people might see me haha mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: there's no such thing as a better person Auftragstaktik says: hmm mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: dont get me wrong- i still worry abt what others think of me. but sometimes, just sometimes, we all go beyond that, no? mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: tears stream, down on your face, when you lose something you cannot replace Auftragstaktik says: ah sry d/ced anyway that was coldplay? mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: yeah man. fix you. haha. one of those from back in the day. both dampening and uplifting at the same time. isnt that amazing, how it does completely different things to you? in just those few minutes. Auftragstaktik says: the magic of music i guess i mean not to be trite or anything but its really amazing mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha why wld i think it trite. we have so much of that around us already. Auftragstaktik says: i mean i realised it while running my marathon i think if i had to do it without my ipod i would have been in alot more pain haha and amazingly my ipod lasted 6 hours woot - Auftragstaktik says: whats this anyway mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha u'll see Auftragstaktik says: omg is it dead? mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha. i'd prefer to think it was sleeping. twas during livewire, we saw this panicky sparrow who cldnt fly. moments later it was silent. we picked it up with the economist and buried it. before that i took this shot. i think in death there's beauty. Auftragstaktik says: oh dear sounds quite morbid you know in death there is beauty mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: i know how it sounds haha, but seriously, i thought so. u had to be there, to see it, so peaceful, under the hot sun, while everyone else was talking army, here we had this soul, leaving us in that moment. what cld be more important? why didnt it matter more to us? i dont believe in god, but i thought i heard nature's voice Auftragstaktik says: ah i mean i dont really understand but i sort of get it or at least i get what you're trying to say mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: yeah i dont get it entirely too, but i just felt there was some greater calling u know? i dont profess to be frost or anything. but i was at peace. Auftragstaktik says: i guess i mean from the sound of it i guess you just got some perspective god knows i need some perspective in my life mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: haha. god. does he really? and dont we all? Auftragstaktik says: yea he probably doesnt need any but i certainly do mot keep the tentacles whole and they will swell like chrysanthemum blossoms says: whywhyyy what do u mean by perspective? i mean, the very fact that ure thinking abt perspective, doesnt it mean u already have the power to see? Auftragstaktik says: no i mean and about perspective i mean the thing is you realise that you dont have a big picture understanding that things you think are important arent really all that important at all but you cant convince yourself of it or you cant see what the really important things are i guess thats what i mean by perspective
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Monday, June 02, 2008
three things what i've been up to... 1) reading running with scissors "so, i do know what it's like, augusten, to love somebody who doesn't deserve it, because they're all you have." 2) laughing at ruby pan "nunsince, singaporh so many dipperend kinds of english, of course the baby cunpewsed" 3) finger gun fighting, with stef, joel & russell
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