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Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

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Friday, September 29, 2006
looking limbo

the past week has been simply great- catching up, unwinding, putting things in perspective, and mentally preparing myself for a lot of things.

i more or less spent the weekend slacking and moping around the house and the swimming pool, in front of the tv watching movie after movie.

in other words, vegetating, as ive said before.

but tuesday saw me embracing the newfound freedom! woke up rather early for KBOX with class! hahaha. it was the most fun i had in days. pure enjoyment and merrymaking and silly singing and shouting and just having a great ball with great company. somehow one can never go wrong with the class, and im very thankful for that. naturally i appreciated the english songs more but i realized that chinese songs aint that bad after all. the food wasnt super but all that singing really made up for it. colourful experience to say the least. and it was my virgin kbox round...so that's another first for the keeping!

i have a malu-ating video of the rest of them singing YMCA with the moves! hahaha. they're gonna have to pay me off to stop it from leaking onto youtube with a full list of cast :]

but you know. things like that. moments. they just come and go.

it was joy's birthday...gave her milo which she sipped like a baby, as usual. anw while writing the card a lot passed through my mind and i realized there's so much to talk about each person in the class. but that for another day. in a tribute to joy, i will always rmbr her as the moon orchid wannabe, the aspiring pussycat doll, the nibbler, and the albino girl who tap dances and who only LOOKS innocent.

we went to MIND cafe after that! boy i enjoyed it. zhifeng xtine joy and myself played on one table by ourselves since the rest ousted us with their strategy game of sorts. grrr. but i wld like to think we had more fun than them. haha. anyway we were head over heels in laughter over this game called Faces, which prompted xtine to exclaim that its the most number of ugly pple she's seen at a go. the animal pictures were hilarious. anw two rounds of it establish joy and myself as psychic buddies. xtine cldnt believe that she was actually losing in a game like that and zhifeng and her cheated!!! haha actually so did joy and i but wth it was still good fun!

after when some of them left the remaining pple played this Idiot game and it was great fun too. shumin was an excellent teammate and those trivia questions were delightful. liked it when daryl 'the idiot' gave the answer as peanuts and he was actually right...haha. the free flow of drinks rocks. shld go back there again someday.

well the walk back from paradiz was peaceful and suddenly most of them waved goodbye and trotted off to the mrt. zhifeng xtine and i were left. i mentioned that it felt like survivor and we were the last three standing. ok that was lame but yeah. roamed abt PS for an hour or so. enjoyed the relishing of freedom. just soaking in time. visiting ntuc and lego and what not...oh amd i bought interview with the vampire (dvd) for $12.50 woohooo! eat that!

anw we finally settled at the foodcourt where zhifeng ate fish soup and xtine came to the conclusion that he was her dad. and the girl refused to eat despite time approaching 9pm but it was nice of her to accompany us anw.

then at 9smthing i found myself alone and arriving ontime for possibly the first time in a long while. it was great hanging out with the ole bunch again! i was actually extremely zombiefied by then- having walked around town the whole day. but somehow we slept late, as with all sleepovers. i figured there was plenty of lazing arnd and toying arnd with cc's computer but eventually we got down to games of categories inspired by 987's shan wee and each of us had the chance to be 'authorities' on our areas of expertise, which was funn. then godknows what else we did to pass time. i rmbr making them watch lotsa rockstar videos- but obviously not everyone cld appreciate. oh well. bummers haha. alan amazingly finished his comic books and was busy most of the time havin sms sex. jonk was being a prig. cc was flirting with joy on the phone. anw those little things just came together eventually and i liked how we cld still hit it off after so long lah. it has been a long time, really.

anyhow, the next day- late, as expected. but seeing ms heng again was the best reward ever! nash joined us and we went to crystal jade for lunch, then roamed arnd the opera gallery and kinokuniya before settling down at the coffe club for tea. ahh it was nice catching up and ms heng's become more of a friend than anything and im so thankful for that. a lot of advice from her and i will always respect her for that- teaching us kindness and respect and love and well, let's not talk abt the chinese. no prizes for guessing that yours truly was worst in chinese but well i tried and im gonna brush it up soon. nash gave a wonderful rundown of his mother and i really think he shld write a book abt her and how she has through drastic means (for lack of the better word) really prepared him for life. the woman warrior story of spore, with nash's mom as brave orchid. haha.

anw...oh ms heng. felt i let her down on the chinese bit but well hopefully i can redeem myself soon. i really dont know if she's realized how much she's given us- at least i feel that way- so much so much. positive love.

i miss a lot of teachers. i miss my maids too. problem is, i might never meet a good bulk of them for the rest of my life. and that makes me very sad. i need to keep the people around me, closer.

well the whirlwind outing i had ended after that. wish we spent more time together, but it was good unwinding nonetheless. and for a moment time stopped in that limbo. no results. five days of proper slacking. and having a lot of alone time to reflect.

anw trip to borders was accidental and guess who i met again...russell! gotta love that albino guy.
and it was at the same dvd offer place near the design books which is crazy. haha. that's how small singapore is and how coincidental things can get. had a nice chat and i appreciate spontaneous stuff like this. i think it just shows a different and real side of a person when that happens.

and today lawrence on msn and navjote too were great convos for different reasons. and lunch with class was a return to the good ole times. i love how we're so familiar with each other now.

so at the end of the day i believe that everything happens for a reason. even if it's the decision to take the bus instead of the mrt and walking into borders, or bad grades waking us up from our academic slumber, or tuning in to another radio station in the middle of the night and hence winning smthing, i think life has been fair in that the karma police have been at work.

one of these days i will get there and im gonna work hard for what i want from now on. and i BELIEVE. suddenly i just wanna throw everything away and live my goals out.

some things i want to accomplish in the coming years:
- get the perfect score for As.
- learn the guitar/piano.
- learn russian and visit russia.
- buck up and bulk up.
and as always become a better person.

i wanna travel the world and experience and live the world, like russell said, and not just remain in some corner of the world, even as we are seeking to understand our purpose in this space we call the universe. and i wanna be like navjote and be brave and strive for that accomodating factor in the human element!

my grades are teetering at the moment so no point discussing an inconclusive matter. im just thankful it aint any worse than it is at the moment, which is smthing we tend to take for granted. to all those with me, just know that we will get there, somehow. and we're gonna lead beautiful lives from now on. because life is beautiful.

"ipod, therefore i am." :]

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