otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

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Sunday, May 21, 2006
shifting where?

hello. no more shifting gears. which im surprisedly aloof about right now. maybe one of these lonesome nights im gonna wish it all back to the start, and then i wouldnt feel so empty and lost.
but no, now i dont seem to have the luxury of doing that and feeling sorry for myself- not that i want to.

it was a splendid two nights, and i thought rp did itself real proud- everyone, from the actors to the front of house to the publicity to the backstage peeps to those in the tech box, and even ushers...well all i can say is it came together and i dont know but somehow i feel closer to so many of them now? and i know it wont last that long cuz a lot of such stuff survive for the moment and once the moment's gone then we lose it too, but yes it's an amazing feeling to begin with and it'll be silly not to cherish it while we can.

thank you to all my friends on stage who acted and with each power play made me choke back tears of joy! you were all so gooooooood. there was so much energy and oomph i really didnt want it to end. i was transfixed myself- equally entertained as the audience were. so kudos to you. and you, and you! and it's so comforting working with pple and doing the little things- be it cutting foil gears and blutacking them up painstakingly, or designing the bloody programme till 4am, or painting the toy box, or carrying sets over...whatever it is, i really miss it and it has really really not yet sunk in that that was probably my last time in smthing like that! i dont even want to get started with the names but im glad i took photos with everyone so the memories stay with me...togetha, foreva! if i had just one small little thing i could hold on to at the end of this journey, this new chapter that isnt so new after all, it would be this whole experience in rp and i daresay im really glad i joined in jc cuz it has made my life so much more fruitful.

i need to thank not only rp but also those who appreciated the behind the scenes work, cuz that's smthing that isnt always recognized and given enough credit for- but well, pple worked their butts off for that. so yes thanks for the suppportive audience and friends who came :] i really wanna hug all of you again.

it seems like i cant really be specific here, and i dont know why, but all i really wanna say is thank you. thank you for making me the better person that i am, and for giving me so much more than i could have ever wished for.

for once i dont feel obliged to blog about so many things- all the things that happened these past few weeks. maybe im just a coward who cant face up to the fact that his life is going full speed and he hasnt even woken up from it yet. and maybe he cant stand staring at the days ahead of him knowing that there's so much pressing in on him. maybe im just scared.

"if i could tell the world just one thing it would be
we're all okay"

6:30 AM