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Sunday, May 07, 2006
sarah

okay i figured i better blog before a new week starts and i get all caught up in a whirlwind that i call my life. this is crazy, really. sometimes i wonder why i push myself to ridiculous limits and for what, you know. like why do i even bother?

there is a good two weeks to update on but as far as i can remember i didnt cover nash's and junyi's bday dinner. we had it on a friday and despite having tons ahead of me (oh i had no idea) we took some time off together to relax and dine out at cartel. a pity it wasnt nash's real bday but it was good while it lasted- those few precious hours before we rushed off for performances and what not. i made the cards for the both of them, haha, which im immensely proud of cuz i did it magazine cut out collage style which is smthing basic that i enjoy returning to once in a while. the surprise was mostly gone by the time we presented nash with the card and he was even demanding that we cut the cake fast. which was like -_- haha. but junyi didnt expect the card i guess and such a pity only 3 pple signed it. you see only jonk alan nash junyi and i were there. junyi did the cutting bread thing which was so reminiscent of him cooking maize and barbecuing at cavendish park some years back (gosh it's been years) as i turned around to take a photo. btw ms kelly's baby elise is soooooooooooo kewt and adorable i wanna squish her...erm ok but yes the pictures say it all- im so glad the family's doing fine now. i wanna visit so many pple. anyhow we sorta ordered our stuff and chatted abt i dunno what- you see it happens- you chat abt so many things and laugh so much and you cherish that experience but why issit you tend to forget the specifics? maybe the specifics dont really matter in retrospects- what matter's is that they came naturally and that was why moments can be so magical and timeless and unforgettable despite being forgettable at parts. yeah yeah im not making sense but yes we had fun, shared good food, and played an extremely weird round of "i have never" which was really really revealing but i shant go further, ahem. we should get together again soon yeah?

BECAUSE blogspot is BLOODY LOUSY at recovering posts, and my STUPID COMPUTER has some STUPID fetish for konking on ME, im retyping the rest of the entry which is SHIT now because i HATE how i cant sleep early now and it's gonna lead to one whole vicious cycle!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

went for cdc with jonk after that and i must say i was suitably impressed. kudos to everyone really (esp those i know: george, liansheng, js, weiping, xixun, phoebe etc) because it was a remarkable experience watching- so experimental in lights and sounds and direction and the sets and props were all so chio and dazzling. i thoroughly enjoyed myself- a good cultured night out considering i cld still understand most of the chinese, haha. and ms heng was there too! im so glad things are going fine with her as well, and her husband! so anw it was rather late when i got back. waited for my father and he finally came in this ridiculous SUV with the company logo all over it haha but thankfully it wasn’t my new car but just a loan for the SUVival challenge. cool stuff but i was so sleepy i just slept the whole night away. it was a night well spent. now it's RP's turn to steal the stage and claim back the limelight! SHIFTING GEARS Doublebill 19/20may 7.30pm PAC $10 only!

may day weekend was spent doing work and catching up on things. i did kwok's sbq, mac's marlow, sats and some math. which made me feel real good abt myself. oh and i did design, which i was soon to realize i was gonna get too much of. basically the rest of the week saw me sleeping past 4am per night, except for one 1am plus night all the way from monday to friday. i was pretty zonked out by the end despite my looking all perky and stuff. sometimes i wonder how i keep up that facade of being so bubbly and happy and energetic and querky inside when actually all i wanna do is fall down and sleep sometimes. like you know, just relax and chill it all away. on thursday night when econs case study and design clashed pretty badly and i really didnt want to sleep late but mrs butler called and launched on me this whole slew of changes i really felt depressed and really almost cried. i guess the only thing that stopped me from doing just that was my fatigue. anyhow friday was a considerably early day for me as i took the afternoon off design for sats- but ended up sleeping haha and waking up, but it was just a lazy cosy night you know, doing nothing, just feeling content and languid and lackadaiscal- and not feeling abd abt it cuz the break was well deserved i guess. slept past 12 which was almost a taboo but the moment i hopped in i was morpheus's again.

SATs. njc. met pple like jonk zhifeng jonong amy lloyd cheryl zengyu aloysius and kenny. in short the invigilators were horrible- firstly scolding kenny and me for talking (during the names shading for heaven's sake!) and later starting the test section before half of the hall came back from the toilet break- stupid inconsiderate crabs i tell you. considering we were their guests i expected some decent form of hospitality but they were complete robots and unfeeling creatures. i wld go further, but karma beckons. the test was only so-so for me. i really wanna do well for it but i dont think i did my best. i hope i did well enough for me not to be disappointed but then again i dont really know what i want do i? haha what would it take to satisfy a guy like me? erm...haha. you know what i really dont want to take it again. well i can only hope for the best now. sats2 coming up in june, and im gonna ace it! im determined to! mathlitbio here i come!

anw rushed back home and did design again all afternoon but to my dismay not everything was in so i cldnt finish all in time and had to rush out of the house and was late in meeting zee at drama centre for aspects of love. anw had nice dinner with parents at hans too bad it was a quickie and i wouldve loved to spend more time with them. i just wish mahjoing didnt come up so often and maybe next time i just need to be nicer and not be so moody ahh i feel bad now but nvm yes we parted on a good note. anw the musical was bleahhh. nice at parts- i liked the love changes everything song and some actors like george and julietta and i liked how it was considerably small scale and had a cosy feel about it- live piano players, blackout scene changes (haha all sounding like drama feste) and easeful tunes whose melodies kept ringing our heads way after it was over. what i didnt like was how weird the music was at times, even zee said it was not impressive and he could see why it wasnt as popular as phantom, being andrew lloyd webber and all. but one thing to note- he only did the music which was actually the show's saving grace for most parts- the acting was not excellent- the leads i didnt like the way they sang it seemed as though they were trying too hard to pronounce the words and sing rather than act and convey the approporiate emotions throughout. so it was a very detached performance i felt, plus the plot was extremely bizarre, weird, off, or what you will. man falls in love with actress, actress elopes with man, actress falls in love with man's uncle, actress runs away, marries man's uncle, uncle has mistress italian sculptress, who then joins in with uncle and actress in some happy threesome, two women kiss (why it was minimum age 14 i dunno) for no seeming reason, actress has daughter with man's uncle, daughter grows up and falls in love with man who still loves her mum, uncle gets jealous and dies of heart attack and it ends with how love never really leaves you quite the same. indeed, love changes everything, and seeing is believing. but i could not believe my eyes when it all unfolded before me. super uncanny chain of events but i guess they were aspects of love that i dont understand at this stage of my life. hmm i must watch it again- it always makes more sense after you sort it all out, and i can sense so much potential and magic from within. monique wilson did a good job however i must credit her for her strong charm of a voice but her direction was lacklustre to say the least. i appreciated the age transition scene and the human sculptures idea and the colourful circus scene etc but it just didnt wow me as a whole. the ensemble was also repulsive and mostly unimpressive. but i enjoyed myself- just relaxing the night away. zee and i thought we saw mrs perry, haha, but it was a fake-o. after that we walked and mrted home and it was nice talking to him after so long, and watching the neon glow of that glider soaring through the sky, like it was my hopes and dreams running past by me. it was like the quiet moments ive been having to myself- today at the lift lobby, the strong wind blowing and lifting me up, me and my spirits. and today after dinner lying quietly in my bed feeling the night slide by like a giant blanket that i have to wake up from beneath one of these days. anyhow, it was a nice long chat and i guess like i told zee and not anyone else yet, im so glad it's all gonna be over soon. and then maybe i can be less inhibited and be so truly happy for once. strange how it ties in with rp's college play shifting. the irony that life presents us with. coffee, tea, or me?

speaking of all that design and rediscovering art, was talking to terence and i realized i would actually do it all over again, no matter how bloody stressful. thing is, i love doing art and knowing that at times when im lonely and sad i can always fall back on it with a little pencil doodle or photoshop tweaking, it really makes me feel good about myself and i enjoy sharing what i do with everyone else. so yes, that said abt art, it was my last day with art club on wed. pretty sad i know. i was guilty but it was worth the effort going- come on, my last chance ever?! plus ive already let down so many friends in there like ruth and beixi i thank them for being so understanding and so kind but yes i ought to have contributed more and not treat it like some come and go cca. well i tried not to, i guess trying wasnt enough. argh. anw not the time for regrets. it was all over that day. i almost collapsed at the exhibition given it was a late hot afternoon and i was sustaining on a 4am night. really didnt bode well plus mr chia was speaking to us and you know how he speaks...s-l-o-w-l-y! haha but he's so inspiring and i respect him for that. really. so sad he only came this year and this year happened to be my absolute ad hoc year. i didnt stay for dinner, but it was all good. i will miss all of them, thank you for making my bright eyed enthusiastic embark on this artistic route end on a better note than it should have- i will just follow mr chia's advice and start a scrapbook. beixi inspired this too, so i thank her and her amazing godlike drawings. was so tired by then but i still got work calls. thank god for the early bus home.

moor tarbet meeting on tuesday i think. house capt speeches went pretty well i thought. now results will be out tmr. funny how at the same time GE is going on. but oh elections. did i mention im politically apathetic? now i have. no apologies. haha anw our whole house comm was there and so could take complete photo right?! wrong! glen liua ran awayyy argghhh. so we had to do without him. grrrr. anyway we met again on thurs in an attempt to wrap things up and it looks like we wont be seeing the last of each other just as yet. man i dont want it to end. but it will, soon, "and im ready, ready as i can be, which isnt saying much i guess".

and you know, my friend, i hope it isnt happening again, because if so i want to know why and i really wish things were different.

thanks to shirin for her inside info, i now know that nelly furtado is all set to get promiscuous with her new album loose, coming this june! haha hint for birthday presents!!! but seriously im so excited- i have her first two cds which are so eclectic and excellent. she looks set to abandon her folklore side of things and once again make us go whoa!nelly by really letting loose. without further ado, check it (her) out!

now for a very special segment: about a girl named sarah.

sarah is a girl from school whom ive fallen in love with, well, not literally that is. then again what is love? haha. but yes, charming as she is, she has touched so many pple's lives including mine. ive always heard abt her but never quite got to know her until our paths crossed in RP's Threesome, where she played Jessica and I played Anthony in The Roadrunners.

Our first rehearsal together on that scene with both of us alone was amazing- cc the director didnt have to do much wrt to our chemsitry because we had it man! it was there spanking and all natural and ready to go. funny thing is we didnt know each other that well, but through our lines, i got to know the real her, and as much as i wldve loved to meet jessica, sarah's a million times better! she keeps calling me sweety and sexie but you know what she's the real sweetheart and bombshell cuz she has a heart of gold and looks that will hypnotize you *faints* she's also a dancer, a line which gives her so much grace and groovy moves that i admire her for.

i may not be religious but she is one person who has managed to move me with her staunch belief in her faith, and i respect her so so much for that. i rmbr the time she prayed for us before we went on stage. holding hands- i felt her spirit connect with ours! in short, she has truly been inspiring and im so thankful i know someone as beautiful (inside and out) as her. i know now that you can never really judge a person until you know them. i know her now, and my judgement is she's just an ordinary girl with an extraordinary heart.

she's forever frank and open, and i try to keep her happy because that's when she's at her best! she likes cats, unlike my other dear friend xtine, and her acting as Jessica has proved she can be one feisty feline herself. whatever it is, sarah, you are loved, and please, despite us not seeing each other that often, despite us not having orientation to goof around with each other and lock hands from the GO to the hall, despite us not acting together anymore (although, you never know do you?)- dont ever forget our pact to meet up for tea sometime in the future. thank you for you. (p.s. sorry i could not go for Amarante- but im sure you were magnificent, as you always are)

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