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Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

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Sunday, January 08, 2006
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i dont think i did 2005 good in that previous entry. answering those questions helped me recall loads of stuff, but i still never got to have my 2nd annual e-awards cuz my com decided to bomb over the new year, and quite obviously i havent touched on the us trip in detail.

but i really dont know what to say. im listening to keane's somewhere only we know now, the same song i heard on grey's anatomy the other night, and im filled with this sudden surge, to sweep everything aside and just move on. move on from a very hectic but extremely fulfilling year. at the start of the year my theme song was unwritten by natasha bedingfield. the jc book is half written now, and sometimes im so excited to discover more about the world all around me. i look around me and realize there are so many people i think i know but really, i dont. they dont know me either but i wonder if they want to know me like i wanna know them. i think people should be dependent on each other. i dont think many pple are dependent on me, whereas im dependent on a hell lot of pple, in bits and pieces. maybe that's why most of the time i feel slightly incomplete. hmmm.

like i said the last holiday was one of the most fulfilling ever. first there was threesome, then mindef, then the us trip and of course orientation. the only thing constant abt all these things was that i got to try something different and got to know lots of new people. im greatly thankful for that. i just feel so warm with many people around me i know. threesome saw me meeting certain new pple, and reinforcing the bonds i had with others. mindef helped me open up to pple from other schools, and that was really fun. the us trip gave me so much so much. im gonna disappoint by not sharing details- but in a nutshell, i love boston, new york and washington dc. boston and harvard made me feel so warm despite the cold weather and that crazy blizzard. hmun was disappointing, but nevertheless an experience to remember. i learnt to shop more. washington was educational like anything and really an eye opener to see stuff like ground zero. new york was simply astounding esp times square and my favourite statue of liberty. reminded me of my childhood visit to that very same spot. ahhh i dunno. i soaked up every moment of it that's for sure. it feels wrong to write so little about an experience so big. but its been too long since then, i cant compromise. i miss the cold air. i miss the company and holiday mood there. the american breakfast and checking into hotels. the long bus rides with the singing and laughing and silly games. i miss kris world on board sia of course. i miss the big room the four of us had in boston. i miss escaping to filene's basement at night, as well as to GAP after eating at the barbecue place. i miss putting on the big winter coat and playing with the snow and photowhoring with everyone. i wont forget the amazing museums we went to, the white house, the capitol building, the pentagon visit, the big pizzas we had, the funny chinese food, the scary emily rose talk and putting on moisturizer and getting excited over our first broadway experience! i miss shopping around for souvenirs and being in complete spending power. the cold air- where did all that go? away with time, i guess.

and after that it was jetlag and back to reality. no more using 6-19dec as an excuse. orientation became the main focus. well what do you know its over. i guess all i have to say is it was a great honour knowing the oteamers and working with so many fun and dedicated pple. i had loads to learn from them. dry runs were fun for sure, but nothing compared to the real thing i must say. i never got to learn the dance properly of course. first day was real worrying cuz everyone seemed stoned. bert&shihui told me metano'ia was like that too. man, really? well i guess im glad things got better, as they always do. meta;fyr was indeed one guai og to lead, nobody was out of hand, and jean and i really tried my best. at least they bonded more or less and surprised us in lots of ways, like most of them going out for dinner and coming up with a very cute og item and cool costumes. and gawd that super nice flag everyone was in awe of. you know what guys, you have so much to be proud of cuz u all did this urself! and learning the dance! everyone had so much fun in the end. hmmm:] it was a bloody tiring week, but what kept me going was the fun it entailed. house time was entertaining, with pple like junyi and jerry haha. don't cha baby! ok at this point i realize im incoherent so i will stop. but really, meta;fyr is a group of really good hearted pple, i cant wait to know them better. hopefully everyone will grow closer, and not apart. we gave em cactus as souvenirs, reflections was made so much more meaningful thanks to jean and the secret message thingy. onite was disappointing, but had its highlights. storyline was a success in many ways. fabulous director and fun music and great costumes and cranky pple acting! made it such a joy to watch! i enjoyed dancing the most, come to think of it, and the singing too. i just like doing such stuff, even if it means i look/sound lost. hmmm :]

metano'ia, where did we all go to? i miss all of you, in some vague but rather certain way. i contradict myself, but i still miss you guys. come back to my life all of you!

well that's that. this is one entry which im gonna have loads of regrets about, but i have tons of stuff to do. this year, crazy year. it's already started. i can feel it. somebody save me. what is wrong with me all this doesnt feel right writing about. thoughts of indonesia and yugoslavia just make me puke. time tricked me one more time. im thinking i wanna go out there and enjoy myself, cuz there is so much more to appreciate and soak up. i hate to think im gonna be excluded in a matter of months. but that's life isnt it. i spent the whole hols just enjoying myself. partying three nights in a row. ice skating after so long was invigorating. and then today i went cable skiing. im yearning to put myself out there. but i wonder if it really makes me happy.

if it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad

to be completely honest, people often prefer to exclude me from a lot of things, albeit non-consciously. sure i seem intriguing at first, then they tire of me. like i have no more to offer. i hope this theory of mine isn't true. i get paranoid too, i know :]

p.s. in zee's words, honour 2005! i didnt think anything could beat 2004, but 2005 came close, if not surpassed it. may 2006 be one magical year then. here we go.

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