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Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

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Friday, January 13, 2006
come on baby we aint gonna live 4ever

poof! it has been one crazy week, somewhat lacking in variety, but heavy in substance. but here's the catch- its only the second week! as i type this im freaking tired and if it were not for my hygenic angel within me i wldve fallen asleep in my uniform and woken up tmr with a sour taste in my mouth. that happens when u dont brush ur teeth before you sleep, btw.

it is impossible to blog abt everything, you know. you just keep missing out stuff. or sometimes you dont feel youve expressed yourself properly. im still bummed up abt not honouring 2005 enough. but i guess i must look forward. hmmm. the end of 2005 was pretty good, and i say that partly because i grew closer to my cousins :] not that we werent close to start with, but i guess we have began connecting as teenagers with certain common interests and just the will to stay together makes it all the more special. i cant wait to dance with them again, sing silly songs and just bum around. if you must know, these are not all of my cousins, but rather those of my age group. the youngest being sec1 this year and the oldest being j2. just the six of us. i rmbr we used to play cards and hopskotch and silly stuff at my grandparents' house. we might have outgrown those, although cards will return during cny, but on a spiritual level i really think we have improved. when i was younger i used to think that looking at our parents who dont really meet up with their cousins, we probably wont keep in touch as well. but you know what. we the new generation rock! yes sometimes i wish i had different cousins, more cousins, cousins as siblings, whatever. but all i know now is i cant wait to grow up with my cousins :]

speaking of CNY, are we not excited!?! im just glad there's gonna be a holiday again! and CNY is particularly exciting, not because of the money, but just the festive mood and everything from my family's rather adhoc tradition and all that jazz. absolutely cant wait. last year was plain boring, but i can tell its gonna be fun again this year. after so long...wheee! stuff like this makes me proud to be of chinese heritage. yes, i may be part portugese and part malay and part latino, but then again, you know im kidding. ha!

i think spore really gives the chinese too much emphasis. like two days off. and chinese everywhere. sometimes i feel i wldnt think its fair if i were malay or indian or any other race. i dont know. anw haji was spent at home trying to do rap. rapped the whole day, turned out our project focus had to change. so i ended up rapping the whole night of wed away too, way into thurs morning. sighh. oh yeah george soros talk! it was rather enlightening in some ways. and you can never lose out going for something like this. my only regret is i wasnt at cca feste. i think im gonna have to commit better to my ccas if i want my remaining time left to be fruitful. yepp. anw the speakers on stage were rather knowledgeable, you cld tell. kishore was his brilliantly composed, thinking self, and tommy was funny, as usual. suzaina almost got cornered by us cuz we needed her to rap with us! ahhhhh. and then there were two students and what not. truth to be told i fell asleep when george was speaking. too tired! but on the whole, id like to think i didnt waste that afternoon. good fun anyhow. at least i know abt open societies and what not. after that ramu yeeler hanyi and myself headed back to BK to rap on. together with 'terence' the fish, haha, we kept laughing and joking abt it became so tiring to go on laughing, really. got it all sorted out finally, and now im just glad we're done with draft 1. congrats to us!!! and thank goodness it was a really cooperative working atmosphere to be in. stressful, but i felt the group suffered and held each other up together. thanks peeps.

people around me have been plagued with strange conditions/problems/changes. terence mentioned when we went over to his house on sunday, after my cable skiing, that he suspected a fracture of his sternum. frankly for someone like me who has had breathing problems cropping up occasionally, my lungs went soft when i heard that. well terence's fine now, muscle problem after all, but really scary to start with. the feeling of not being able to breathe properly, or normally, just so not cool.

shirin has been making headlines with her disappearing act. unlike xtine, im in Camp Neutral. i think that as long as she knows what she's doing, she shld go ahead! and through talking to her i know she's not anorexic or anything, so goody! but yeah lah looking at her it has been one dramatic change. subtle, yet dramatic. i dont know how to put it. it crept up, but crept up suddenly, you know? me, on the other hand, i need to get fat and muscular. haha ok maybe not that, but just getting into the fitter and more than acceptable range of weight and bmi and all- im already 50kg, in case ure wondering! congrats to me! and boo to js and alan who are probably still floating in the 40s range. lightasses!

and last but not least are the people going through emotional changes. sometimes i think these are the most dangerous changes. anything welled up inside can be extremely harmful to keep within. and i dont know. i guess all of us deserve to be heard, because as much as we think the need of keeping things private because nobody else needs to/wants to know, we actually do want concern from people, even if these pple are random. i was telling some pple that i dont really know who to turn to when im down.

i know how she feels because ive been there before. i had problems with my temper and a lot of things irritated me and i really wanted conflict to be solved with everyone knowing how much of a victim i was, because i certainly felt so. im not saying that's the case now, but im just saying i probably know how much can swell up inside a person. you know, i think as long as we make a point to be happy and carefree, our problems will down by half. so i hope everyone stays happy, not only for youself, but for the people around you who care for you and want to see you happy. yes, they do. sadness is rather contagious. cheer up guyssss. we were meant to live for so much moreee!

today i earned myself a white slip by not submitting any math hmwk by the stroke of 5. i guess i cld live with that, but i want to get math over and done with, and prove that given time, i can do it, on my own. yes, i need to get disciplined. lit S and hist S have been nothing in specific but seem extremely promising. if i wanna get into the groove and thoroughly enjoy myself, i needa start reading again, diligently, passionately, and widely. i really wanna be widely read. it can really change a person, whatever u do or watch or absorb. as rolly always says- you are what you read. trueness! so that's a goal to work towards :]

oh yeah yesterday i watched I Not Stupid Too with parents. im not a film snob, so im gonna say sing films are always underrated cuz i thought it was fabulous in its own ways. had funny parts, "lame" parts, literally (go watch it for yourself), but also really touching and real aspects were reflected rather tactfully. i thought the acting was greattt and the moral behind it, though seemingly cheesy and cliche, really is meaningful if u think abt it. when was the last time you praised someone? been a while hasnt it? and FAMILY. what does it really stand for? father and mother i love you. like awwwwwww man. i like how u feel so at home and proud to be singaporean when u watch stuff like this. its simply something irreplaceable esp when u relate to it so well. why cant some pple see that, that the movies they go for may be popular and wildy acclaimed but do they really understand and connect with it spiritually? i dont think so. so moral of the story- dont be a film snob. try out everything! even mindless comedies. smtimes pple just needa chill and have fun. i dont know why im so defensive, i guess you wld only understand me when uve watched it.

been having random hangouts with pple. first it was yingsze and jo during the setting up of rp's board. i just decided to stay wtih them cuz i was too lazy to take the bus home. stayed back and had fun really. in a very subdued way. the radio went on to play two ashlee simpson songs back to back- which threw me into hysteria. tonight i had most fun! i was on my lonely way to j8 for my sis's present, when i saw a grp of 1Bers! ended up joining joel, eve and huiting for dinner at foodcourt...and you know what im glad i made that last minute decision cuz it was really great talking to pple u dont necessarily talk much to on a normal school day, despite them being nextdoor. we were able to chit chat and talk and laugh like good friends, and i reallly enjoyed the company and the collective leisurely atmosphere. i guess being a friday night, we had no inhibitions. ended up being chased out of the food court. oh yeah we met denise and tingyong too! well with that said, thanks to these guys. i rmbr the harry potter movie with 1B, really had a blast! great company these people. i must thank them for treating me like one of their own. but really, shame on humans for not acting like one big family, but instead, three units which are rather separate. some pple cant even name everyone in all classes. thats seriously quite sad for a j2, but i guess its noone's fault, but everybody's fault! we shld do more Humz outing instead of just class stuff. yepyep. you never know how much more of a friend you might make in an acquaintance. thanks again guys for a night of unwinding.

when i awake, itll be back to mother math and stuff like that. ggxx.

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