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Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

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Saturday, January 28, 2006
backstreet

everytime i cut my hair i will get reactions. people cannot resist commenting about me. they just love talking about me. they speak well of me because they know they cannot be as good as i am. they speak ill of me because they are jealous, and similary, know they cannot be as good as i am. all these selfish people, they are the centre of their own worlds. they live for themselves. but without me, they would cry a million tears. this is my life. this is my story. i make my own choices, choices which only i am smart enough to comprehend. the people i am referring to, you can call them fools. fools fool not only others, but they themselves. it is fools who fall in love, knowing it wont last. they try everything they can to catch up with me. they pretend they have it better off. but we know fools lose. and i, well, i win.

turn the music up and fall in love with me. today i finished reading woman warrior, at long last. its time for me to move on to bigger things. i was always meant for bigger things. "you must not tell anyone" says a voice within me. but im a rebel at heart. im gonna tell. this is a brutally honest entry. read on at your own risk.

its not like im in a bad mood now. im perfectly fine actually. but i guess i cant keep compromising myself. as much as i dont want to hurt anyone, this is my space. you guys just sit and listen will you. love is the best thing we do. ok then, no names for the victims.

i just deleted one paragraph. nvm i decided i wldnt be able to live with myself if i spilled everything out. a few of you shld be thanking your lucky stars that i stopped short of kicking your sorry asses.

so on a lighter note- the week was a blur, what's new. there was backstreet boys, which was amazing! they were in top form and despite not being 1m away from the stage, we were still starstruck thats for sure. i guess its not hard to get into boyband songs. dance moves and all, so cheesy, so sappy, but so forgivable because they are bsb after all and everything they do is just right. even if carter was a tad too drama on stage- he was feeling it you know- like music hit me! [do the hit me move] oh yeah. and who says bsb cant sing. they all can sing i bet they can sing better than you they sing so much better than me too- esp AJ. they rockk. its like, theyve been doing it forever. 13 years. wow. if you're whining, stop it. if you were whining, pls be sorry you did it. it was in such bad taste, really. you go live with yourself. i had fun! no regrets :]

i guess i can gloss over the last mt df auditions. didnt do much anyway. thankful for pple like gavin and shumin. and nash and jonk and junyi and dani etc. for just filling the director's shoes so easily. i wonder how much im actually gonna commit after reading cc's long email. seriously. im in one of those moods again. im so gonna regret i ever said this. but sometimes, im just way too selfish- i need to put myself first you know. yeah. i guess. hmmmm.

wed there was let's see RAP! see i wasnt paying attention shame on me but yeah q&a was very controversial and interesting i guess. mac was happy. erm oh yeah rp gm. now everyone thinks i like to play with/by myself. im okay with that. i cld live with that i guess. you people should learn to relax and chill you know what i mean. like humans party on thurs- no disco! hello! it was rather uncanny though, how 1a went to the tennis courts. reminiscent of our tennis court "wewantbreakfast" oath. i miss those days. we were young and wild and free. can u imagine im now an angel and i really dont know if i can set a good enough example. i mean im not even going to my junior og's zcove often enough. its almost as if im neglecting them. so yeah gotta start writing notes and giving gifts. im gonna be the nicest senior i tell you. right- the food was good though, and the place was nice- symphony heights. thanks jean! some of us frm mtdf stayed back awhile by the pool, late at night, just sorting things out. atmosphere- i shall say in xtine style- i love.

really thankful that the next day was cny celebrations. i thought i wld spend time roaming abt school. really wanted to hear the bands and watch angie from class dance cheena dance with the rest of our class. but ended up doing chinese calligraphy for 2 hours plus. the teachers who came up to me kept asking stuff like "ni zai hua hua ah?" and i was like "yah hua hua loh" and i guess they just couldnt stand the fact that despite not holding the brush correctly and not writing in one complete stroke at a time, i was producing a work of art. oh fie on them jealous souls. haha ok but seriously all my respect goes out to those pple who can do amazing calligraphy by just you know a whisk of the hand and blah blah. tph was one of the judges but i didnt have the guts to say hi to him although it might be the last time i see him? ok nvm theres still teachers' day. saw csc the other day in canteen too. hear ri wasnt celebrating cny at all cuz there's no hall. how sad is that lah. nvm my calligraphy- i love. not judged- but i love.

there was house comm meeting abt the merger thingy. oops im blogging abt it but nvm. noone is for it lah. in one word- unnecessary. cast in stone or not- unnecessary. what a sticky way to end the chinese year. i didnt feel comfortable at all. even though i had lots to say. just so negative. everything. joined alan and jonk later with junyi only to see zhengyi rushing off in a huff. wldnt speak to us, wldnt stop to talk abt it. got pissed off thanks to A&J. see! so much negativity all around. if only we were happier. pizza delicious- i love. saw yalps- scandalous. but pple shld just give them a break cuz everyone else is just jealous. you go with my support you got it man.

happy chinese new year. im gonna be so happy. need to finish a bloody pile of work though. nvm i will survive. i hope to buy v for vendetta. watch memoirs and zodiac. eat lots of goodies and get fat. have fun. get lots of angbao money. yes im outrightly materialistic this year. im a bad boy come and get me. but you cant can you. neh neh neee poooo pooo.

its irritating when so many pple are taking SATS and youre not. watch it you freaks. oh yeah jerry's bday cake was nice cuz cheese- i love. really glad we gave rachel chen her present of red things. moor tarbet reigns supreme.

i wanna thank charles for helping me return blazer. council has lousy system! in xtine style again- irreeeeeetating! thanks to joy and shumin for singing nonsense with me in lt6. funn. thanks to anyone who made the week fun in its own way. pe was killer, but fun! mac's lit s was fun too, but i dont appreciate homework i really dont. i need someone who will let go with me. dance with me?? hmmm. anw dont think im half as attracted to as i used to be. oh my main tv now is grey's anatomy and a-idol and charmed- only! piper freezing time = i love, cuz i need to stop time sometimes. all the time. whatever.

and when im gone just carry on dont mourn rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice.

6:24 AM