otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

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Saturday, September 17, 2005
ashlee didn't steal your boyfriend

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ashlee simpson - boyfriend

7:28 AM

Sunday, September 11, 2005
we are so young now

we are so young now
we are so young so young now

ok i flouted my own rules. so im not supposed to blog till oct 7 but what the heck this whole week there has been this debate going on inside of me- what i shld do, how i shld plan my study schedule, that i should not watch this or that, do this or that- im just sick of it!

but i have been rather kind on myself. considerably. considering this whole week i woke up after 12pm. apparently im immune to my alarm clock now. it alarms me but doesnt stop me from snoozing a whole 4 more hours.

so anyhow i had a great chance to sit down and study this week. but the most important of all- and i havent forgotten- is how after succeeding weeks of pure stress and hectic deadlines i was finally able to do things at my own pace. and boy that felt good. like now im sitting here typing no matter how much i have to do at least the dateline is still sept 29 and all. argh.

so im thankful for this week. really helped me sleep in and do what i do best. be myself. i have been trying to stay offline but to no avail. look at me typing now! but i guess this will have to stop in a week's time. i shall be real strict with myself. i went without the radio for hours today. was able to focus more. but i think im my biggest competitor. yes, i can distract myself so easily. so i have to challenge myself. i have done smthing like this before. and now the end is conceivable- less than a month away- i can smell success and i will do all my best to get it. i am not gonna care about anyone else. i shall not be pressured by them. i know how competitive and on task so many others are. but at the end of the day i can only be myself. so i have to deal with myself and get over myself. im in my own little world when i study. i have my own habits, ways, timing, pace. i do what i want to do. what i can do to the best of my ability and necessity.

lights will guide me home... and ignite my bones... and i will try to fix me.

on a short but separate note, we visited ms kelly this tuesday. it was magical. baby elise was so adorable. the actual real baby i have appreciated. im so thankful once again for that experience. it just took me out of mugging mode for awhile. helped me open up and all. macs studying was a flop haha. but oh well who cares. we had fun. the puppet books and all. thanks all who made that happen!

now its time to really step up my gear and try to work harder towards my goal. all As! i want to be happy and the only way is if i earn my own happiness. here's a quote i found most meaningful and heartrending when i read someone's blog. and i shall leave us with that. school starts in 7 hours or so. power 98 is going thru some change. sept 11 just passed. how far we have come from 2001 its so scary. i cherish those years leading up to now. all my years actually. well, i digress. i pray noone i know gets dengue. its scary! to hell with those mosquitoes. if i was desperate for a job i wld go fume all of them and earn moolahs for it. mwhahaha. i hope i dont fall sick. stay strong! and rockstar inxs really rocks. now i have added that to my tv lineup but im loving all of it. shall manage time properly now. ok then. ciao.

"When we talk about love, words fail us. It is not that we cannot express; it is just that we don't find the right words to convey our truest emotion."

9:31 AM

Saturday, September 03, 2005
cultural creative

You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational.

Cultural Creative

88%

Existentialist

75%

Postmodernist

69%

Idealist

63%

Romanticist

50%

Modernist

50%

Materialist

38%

Fundamentalist

38%

What is Your World View? (updated)
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3:26 AM

Thursday, September 01, 2005
tonight i fly

i just came back from the high commission of india after a rather short but nevertheless productive interview with the ihc himself. i guess after all this while, my group is really coming together and on our way to getting a band 1- hopefully :] after that we ate at long john silvers and dispersed. that was my day up till now, having woken up at 12.
p.s. leela was nice, haha.
p.s. i dont like my own voice on tape. how am i gonna become a dj or smthing!?!

on msn today allen said he had bad news for me- seems that ashlee's movie undiscovered "stayed true to its title" and flopped, debuting with a mere 680000. haha i can only hope that it comes to singapore because i still want to watch it anyway! click the link below for to discover more about undiscovered (hur hur)
http://movies.msn.com/beacon/editorial1.aspx?ptid=e000016a-f23d-49ed-a543-47e6e4d5a59c

i decided i needed to blog, because so much went on in the past week or so. let's see. i was extremely stressed out. yes. just a persisting list of things yet to do in my notebook- i cldnt wait to strike them off but i just couldnt no matter how much i felt id done. but slowly they all went, one by one- i took in upon myself to slash them off with much pride and a sense of achievement. what- hmun application, rolly essay, wr draft 2 etc. so naturally, the night before yesterday i felt really relieved, having completed the bismarck essay before 12 and having time to prepare teachers' day presents. hmmm so yeah. im glad its all over. but guess what- time to study.

sigh. anyhow on a lighter note- teachers' day was a great break from it all. a nice end to the whole term. celebrations in rj were simple, just a concert, and i managed to give all of them a present. even mrs jsingh whom everyone clearly left out. hmph! i wished i could make it for the humans party at night tho. heard it was fun. and when the teachers got our presents. haha! we're really creative gotta admit that :p oh and i think we learnt that next year, being the last year and all (boo hooo) we're gonna make teachers' day really special. hmmm till then i guess.

went back to ri, of course. it turned out really well. could find majority of the teachers. those whom i couldnt find didnt go home. they either were not in school in the first place (like jwong and msgrace and mskelly) or just missin' (cheryl). it was nice talking to joylim (still as funny), mshuang (yayy she didnt dao us), mrsang (for a wee bit, she has a baby boy hurray), sockchia (baby socks haha), hoon2 (what is the next perfect number after 6?), mrsyau (who rmbrd me but not my name), mark (who was seen dashing around before the 4d contingent could catch him), eric (still the same haha car polish), tanph (who reminded nash and i to study hard and score well and get spaper so we can study in us/uk), hulei (who made me rmbr i cldnt speak chinese properly anymore, but she was ever so nice), ms heng (who had the sudden impulse to hug all of us...awww- she's one teacher who wont forget us just as how we wont forget her) and of course last but not least, mrs koh!!! we heard it straight from her that she was leaving at the end of the year. i really hope we will find time to go back and visit her! anw it was the most heartwarming visit back cuz she gathered everyone at the atrium, hitler style (haha), and she was teary eyed and all as she spoke to us, and even more so as she stood on the little black box, watching all of us sing We Are The Young. it wasnt so much for our batch, it was more like a tribute to an incredible lady who made our batch what it was- a great, fun, cohesive one. if anything she was the glue and without her i really cant imagine how we would have turned out like. sigh. talking about this makes me so sad. its really scary how so many things will just change, and even with you knowing it, there is nothing u can do about it. people come and people go. but how many actually make that much of a mark on your life? mrs koh- we will never forget you. thank you so much for all that you have done, and really, for just being you.

ri is gonna go thru this facelift that will alienate all us old students in time to come. just like how noone really went back to nhps (i think), im really afraid that is gonna happen to me. the thing is, its not so much the school, but it is really the teachers who make a big difference. yeah with that- happy teachers' day! to all who have played such a role to me. thanks so much for all the love and guidance. it really made so much of what is good in me.

some of us went to cartel. had a spicy black pepper chicken spaghetti and we just chatted and chatted about school, music, careers and ambitions, dreams, who wld be the 2nd (erhem we all know who's the first) to get a gf...basically anything we could think of i guess. and it was nice. i really considered that to be one last nice lunch before all that hectic mugging begins. sigh. everyone was laid back and at ease at least :] i must thank you guys for making me laugh and help me relax that day. somehow i was suffering from post-stress trauma. yeah and the fact that i only have this small window of time before it comes back. sighh. but anw everyone was so tired and felt sleepy and needed to go back early due to dinner plans. hmmm. alan took 156 with zee and i. it was kewl. oh and i discovered that i will never make everyone happy with my hair so im just gonna have to be satisfied with it myself. but apparently im not. spent the entire bus trip looking at my reflection and trying to correct it (ok yes i know cldnt help looking at myself yeah. haha) so anyhow i just feel that such outings always end up with a simple goodbye or smthing. its just so unfulfilling. how pple must part eventually. i dont know why makes me feel so empty. so, let's go out one last time i hope. watch red eye or smthing and must must visit mskelly!

just so you know i wrote this entry in two diff parts of the day. so now im already writing in the know that the jue dui superstar is the blind guy. oh well. i actually watched parts of it to give it a chance given the hype. but guess what? big disappointment!!! totally undeserving- both of them- for being the so called champions. i really dont think thats the best spore can offer. argh all these popularity contests. nvm.

lost is just getting more and more mysterious. oh and gosh nip/tuck last episode last night!!! it simply blew me off my seat what with all the twists and cliffhangers! splendid episode one of the most entertaining ive ever watched in my tv watching life and i cant believe cc and xtine missed it! they actually slept! boy do they hate themselves now. but u see that just shows us how life is so tiring now. we give up so much - for what? i just had another of those self scaring moments thinking about death in the toilet early this evening after my bath. but i shant get started. the more i think of it the more im conscious of the fact that one day i will just be -gone-. scary but true. hmmm ok breathe in breathe out. distraction: i hope famke janssen gets an emmy for nip/tuck!!!

well it really pays to be a silly fan visiting ashlee's webby ever so often. because now, instead of just 30 secs, you get to listen to the whole of her new single! wooo hoooo.
hey how long....
and yes after hearing the whole of it im confident im gonna like her second album. anw i wldve even if she sucked because ashlee's just superb! and im gonna say this here and now and you reading this cannot disagree because this is my space and u gotta respect my views....ahahahha! tell you smthing: pple pretend they dont like ashlee because they cant stand that she's so cute and so good! haha ok im obsessed. with everythinggg. forgive me.

but this has put me in an excitable mood because i faced my computer not knowing what could cheer me up. will i have the discipline to study hard from now on? the teachers all said As will be the hardest ever. im so glad im not a j2 and im gonna cherish that im here now and not there. next year would come sooner than we all think and sigh i will just look back and wanna cry and all but i cant but most imptly i hope i have less regrets. yepyep. less regrets than in sec4. no regrets...

i figure im not gonna touch this blog till after promos. but its not gonna be strict. i might just feel like it. till then expect nothing from me here then. yawnn.

our lives. so trivial and trite.
tonight we fly, over those we loved, we now know, and those we'll meet.
down below, the dogs will bark at our shadows.
peace be with me.

3:32 AM