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Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

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Alan Cheng Chai Jun Yi JonK Nash Zee Breakfast! Snee Navjote We Spank Shirin Christine Shumin Jean Trixia Victor Kenny Liyana Jo Jun Sheng Ajit Shib Yam Alps Mike Aparna Sarah Stef Jasmine Shimin Reuben Ziing

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Sunday, August 21, 2005
i am me

was flipping thru TNP and spotted a teeny article. it took me a while to realize the blonde bombshell was ashlee simpson! and lo and behold: Ashlee's coming back with her second album, I Am Me this october! (i really am jumping up and down now) it said at least two songs fight back at her embarassing SNL gaffe- well it's about time she did that anw! how misunderstood she is. so being the avid fan i am i decided to visit her webby before it changes into smthing to do with the new album! really cool. her new single seems promising. but i really hope the sophomore slump doesnt sink in! long live ashlee! check it out!

www.ashleesimpsonmusic.com
www.undiscoveredfilm.com

today i woke up early and tagged along with my father to a mosaic class at pagoda street. mosaico. it was, in short, rather fun cuz it was really hands on and boy was it tougher than i thought. i was the last to finish. but i guess i might wanna pursue it further next time :] mosaic is really cool. impressive form of art- very homely and intricate.

ok been trying to do math. shall copy econs graphs tmr. tmr is another big day. start of a new week. argh. yes yes time flies as usual. im not even gonna try and think about it. Its really stressful. I wish all of this wld end. soon. give me a break!

just had a rather thought-provoking convo with nash. i wonder what you think but I stand by my ground, as we all do. sigh.

[Soulstice] pouncing says:
no one is lonely
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
everyone is lonely
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
that's why there is a one in everyone
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
if you believe in someone up there, you are not lonely
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
who might that be?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
up to your interpretations, i guess
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
some people say God, some says the Endless =)
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
really,
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
it is just not up to us to say that we are alone
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i think it is, if we feel that way
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
everything around us is transient
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
and i dunno, im just not believing in a God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
perhaps so
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
perhaps i'll learn that there is no God one day
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yeah see
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
everything is a perhaps
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but definitely i'll not regret the times whne i belive him to be with me
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and that i am not lonely
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i dont think we are in the power to give the powers an identity
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but that is just self-deceit
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
like just u need him just because of comfort
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
just so u wont feel lonely
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i dont reckon anyone truly believes that God is God
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
not anyone i know, i guess
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but perhaps
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
that you are unwillign to take the leap of faith in something tht you cannot see or touch or feel?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
must soemthing we believe in take a physical form so that we can truly believe in it?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
why shld i take that leap in the first place if i know part of me has to imagine it
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
of course not physical
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but by personifying the powers that be into a God- isnt that trying to simplify things- so that we can understand and feel safe and stay sane?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i believe in Love
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but at least i can feel it
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i do not have to imagine it, pretend part of it
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
haha thats where you are wrong
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
bcos you CAn feel God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
God come sin joy
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
comes in
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
love
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
it is definietly not pretended
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
you mean a billion people aroudn teh world can pretend there is a God
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but u see
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
by attributing stuff like Joy, Love to a God- isnt that cooking something up
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
it is precisely that so many pple believe or seem to believe that baffles me
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
which makes me in turn believe that they cannot possibly truly believe
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
okay i shall tread dangerous grounds here
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
have you heard of religious ecstacy?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
nope
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
have you seen it in churches, where peopel after being baptised cry uncontrollbaly?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
oh that sorta thing
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
it is not an act to see people cry so traumatically
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
not one, not a few hundred
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but one billion
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
what cab explain that?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i for one cannot explain that
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
except that these pple have smthing in them that makes them act the way they do
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but so what- give me one thousand billion- it simply does not prove that God exists
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
only proves that they Believe
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
and i ask- WHY
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
what triggers that something that has been dormant all this while?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
simple
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
a God exists
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and he make sthem belive
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
why do they not believe before?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
if you say someone up there can make us believe- then it can be anything making us believe something which isnt real
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
lies?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
hey are bound to be exposed
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
have you heard of people speakign in tongues?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
in tongues?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
yes
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
tongues are an unknown language
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
only heard durign prayer
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
and what abt them?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
certainyl not an act
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but my conclusion is that, i cannot explain the Holy Spirit in words
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
that simply sounds mysterious to me
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i am not good enough for that
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and i won't pretend that i am
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i wonder who is
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
someone who have taken up the path of discipleship then
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
all and all
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
only God can speak to you
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
nothign taht i say will convince you though
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
how can u say God has spoken to you?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
unless he appears in form
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i dont think any miracle or sorts
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
can really attest for his existence
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
let me ask u then- why do u believe?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
its not miracles
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
how did u believe?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
bcos he has spoekn my name
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
then what
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
simple
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
sigh sm jo
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
u see- that is vague and inconclusive
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
*sam jo
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
spoken ur name?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
u heard him?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
on the radio?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
in the toilet?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i know i cannot really convince you that a God exists
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but i am not going to bother if you take on an aggresssive stance
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
'in the toilet'?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
im sorry if i seemed aggressive- not my intention
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but can u explain what "he has spoken my name" means?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
religious jargon
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
not literally
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but when you are touched by the intent of God, he comes to you and talks to you in yes, literally
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
hearing
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
during prayer sessions
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
incredulous as it may soun
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
isnt that on the brink of hallucination?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i dunno but u see its still very vague to me
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
totally unsubstantiated
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
one billion people in hallucinations?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
u cannot use numbers! they dont mean anything!
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
actually i don't see any point in trying to explain
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i'm not out to convert you
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
just to argue my case and for my faith
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but numbers mean something
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yeah they startle me- but dont prove anything to me- cant say "oh look- so many pple believe- so must i!"
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
and yeah i know u are not evangelizing
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but i mean dont give up on explaining
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
because so many pple ive asked they end up giving up
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
you see
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
christianity is not a trend
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
its not 'oh he has it, so must i!'
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
see it this way
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
then dont use numbers!
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
if someone walks in with an egg with his hand and says, 'this is a god'
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
would you believe?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and people in a church, all praying at the same time
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
it is during then that you can feel God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i can't make the intangible tangible you see
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
words can only go so much
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yes yes yes of course i wont believe in an egg
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but dont u see- what u are probably feeling is the feeling of others who are feeling off each other
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
its a communion thing - they influence each other to believe in God
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
maybe thats why so many pple "believe"
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
sigghhh
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but how many are actually true believers i dont know
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i agree that they are many blidn christains out there
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yes go ahead and sigh
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but do explain to me
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i do not understand
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but seriously
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
a lot of this is intagible
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and -pls do not be offended-, what you want is physical tangible proof of God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and only in that way will you believe
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
well, it is not this way you see
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
bcos God is spiritual
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
an not physical
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i regret to say that I am not very experienced with my walk with God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but someday maybe you will understand
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
what i am trying to explain to you right now
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yeah yeah i get it
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
in that sense, how did u believe?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
its just a gut feeling sorta thing right
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yes go ahead and sigh

mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yeah everyone who cant make me believe sighs
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
and say i wont understand
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yeah yeah i get it
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
till i go thru it myself
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
which is like hello so u are unable to make me believe how much does that show
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
yes
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
as in i get that God does not prove himself in the physical sense
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
for God knows what reason
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
oh because "he doesnt have to"
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
which is like hello so u are unable to make me believe how much does that show

mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i mean thats simply all nonsense to me - sorry -
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
not that he doesn't have to
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but bcos you are not receptive to him
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
if i say, mundane
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
how can i be receptive to smthing which isnt REAL to me
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
HOW DO YOU KNOW HE IS NOT REAL THEN?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i simply don't understand why you take such an agrressive stance
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
lets not go further
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
lest it blows up
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
no no no
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
im not aggressive!
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
relax
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
come on look at what you said
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
its hardly demure, is it?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
huh? what isnt?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
no seriously...
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
oh well lets leave it there
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i don't think you and i want to go on in this convo
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
why not?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
im perfectly ok with it
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
pardon me for saying this
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
but u do seem a little unsettled because of my questioning
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
does it mean anything abt ur foundation in faith?
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
-purely harmless question-
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i'm not unsettled you see, i'm just frustrated that you can't see the way i am
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
plus some sentences of yours are quite prickly
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
like what?!
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
which is like hello so u are unable to make me believe how much does that show

[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yes go ahead and sigh
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i meant it in a nonagressive sense
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
how can i be receptive to smthing which isnt REAL to me

[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i understand
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i found it hard to understad before
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
but really, is personal
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
maybe if i were SPEAKING then it wldnt come across wrongly
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
yeah
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
its somethign about you and God
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
somethign personal that you all settle
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and i, can only do so little
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
hmm ok nvm then
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
maybe we can follow this up in person :]
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
yeah perhsps so
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
jsut rmember taht in order to be receptive doesn't mean that that thing is not real
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yes i will remember- but perhaps never understand :{
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
maybe if you start thinking abt it
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
maybe you will next time
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
=)
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
yep i guess
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
haha what have u been doing? hmwk?
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
talking to you
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
and econs
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
haha okk :]
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
hope i haven't come across too aggressive
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
or pesky
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
nah its ok
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
i know religion is a touchy issue
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
let's leave it there for now
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
yeah
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
i am quite tired
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
kk
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
all the best to you then
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
hope tonight has been useful to you
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
it has been to me =)
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
haha yep thanks
[Soulstice] pouncing says:
see ya
mot. where have all the flowers gone? says:
night

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