otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

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Saturday, May 07, 2005
shit on the radio

and now ure killing me now
and now ure killing me now
hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me hurt me so
shit on the radio
shit on the radio
shit on the radio
shit on the radio
shit on the radio

i love that song! its fabulous. fabulous for languishing in the past, in thinking of sweet memories and literally- remembering the days. i was inspired to listen to nelly furtado again after seeing her sing in Roswell. haha not that i watch Roswell, though i would love to, but yeah coincedences you never know.

oh well this week let's see. not too bad we got extension for Lit essays tho i was already done by monday and ready to hand in (ok throw ur tomatoes at me now). haha but for some they are still rushing their overdue work so good luck and chill ok!
now stuck with kwok and im going to sleep soon. cant be bothered till later i guess. been so busyyy all these while. im gonna get busier.

there's the blog comp to worry abt. there's GPP to worry about. there's econs essay to worry about. rolly's essay. there's MATH to worry about. yeah so really a lot to look forward to like learning more about Italy!!! yeah i love Italy now i could go live in it! like there's RMUN coming up. RP3! House elections!!! COMMON TEST even.

k lah now im like seriously damn scared of math lah. everytime i try to do but cant do anything!!! im absolutely trigo-ignorant. somemore got quiz next week at this rate i wont survive. sigh...joanne is so good dont wanna let her down really. but i think i keep disappointing her and all the ones before her and i dont wanna keep making the same mistake again.
but seriously i need to spend more time on my studies. its no use thinking abt it. i just have to do it. i have loads of economists to read, econs articles to clear, rolly/kwok notes to mug, BOOKs to read! MOVIES and SHOWS to watch!!!

that day i realized i missed Nina van Horn so much. like i long for those old days when i wld be treated to a daily dosage of her ditzyness and gosh i miss Maya, Jack, Eliot, and even Finch!!! one day i will go back to all these. sorta like my roots. i also miss Rick Dees, Soo Wei and Jean Danker!!! maybe even Carrie and her reflections! ahhhh im losing touch so quick.

so yeah anw had house interviews. hadri just had to crash mine turn so i went in and knew two of them on the panel. bernasty being the other of course. kinda relaxed but i hated it when they asked me to talk abt myself. i mean what. tell them i like ashlee simpson and just shoot me and tomatoes? ok maybe i shldve! cuz they really showcase my personality. haha but argh im always stuck at interviews. i hope i was really DECENT. if not i wld be DAMN disappointed. i know i will. i cant take another rejection seriously. rolly was talking abt Humans interview results and my spine just froze on the spot. wahhh i think all that rejection has made me unconfident abt myself. like i dont seem to fair too well for interviews.

for those of u who didnt know, i got nothing for RA too. i was expecting something. but nevermind i cant complain now. i just cry inside and WONDER. and i will WONDER forever. which sucks basically but im so over it. ARGH.

yeah anw so im pinning all my hopes on stuff ive done this week. rp3. earth club. raffles rock. house. they are all i have left. and jonK was talking abt competitiveness. junyi was saying that frens shldnt see each other as competitors but really thats the cruel truth isnt it. we are but ists not like we have a choice. the stakes are BIG. who isnt thinking abt Uni entrance and stuff. maybe we are just being too kiasu but HELLO i have NOTHING now. so naturally im worried and stressed and so yeah wth dont judge. i think we are all like animals. we are all superficial beings.

turn off the light
turn off the light
turn off the light
turnnn turnn turnnn

it is mom's day morning and i wrote a mushy note to mom with a photoshop created card. i dunno somehow pple around me arent happy anymore. i long for the day we can all be happy.

today at CDC it was really great. we all had so much fun LAUGHING and LAUGHING and frankly i was hugely impressed with their performance. they simply rocked big time. to those i know, lawrence, rich and lynn, and liansheng and even woochiao. really fantastic job u know that kudos and my absolute admiration for the talent and inspiration. lynn why didnt u say "billy billy u have responsibilities!!" hahaha that wldve been hilarious. i tot classic moments include Suhidi which was a hilarious Indonesian maid impersonation by tan long, Joanne 'lui' by Lynn the Joanne, Lawrence and Rich talking to each other in the mirror etc. thats not to say the first half wasnt good. it was GREAT too but i cld connect more with the second. ok i have to pay lawrence for the tix soon.

speaking of which- DAISY soon! come and watch you people!!!
i will be doing the sets and props, or rather i have been doing, so come down and support. support RP! support Kim, Jade, Shum, Pandy, Liy, Maxi, Jo, many many other wonderful cast and even Gavin and Waikit!! it wld be awe inspiring really i cant wait to watch it myself. a good way to end the term i guess. so if u wanna be stunned by feeling as if ure in Hogwarts or Malory Towers and lend urself to an evening of British school and magic, come to Daisy Pulls It Off and be enchanted. Just one night, or the magic will not work. You'll be home by midnight dont worry.

speaking of RP congrats to the new exco, which im not in yet again. haha but yeah lah i cant complain abt nice pple. right? yep i was telling pandy abt my premonition that she wld get chairwoman but she didnt believe me. hmmm. yeah so anw i really dont want to be excluded from anything. but somehow it is happening.

okay FREAKY. the ant that was sleeping on the wall just woke up and its crawling abt now. thing is, it can FLY! ahhh i know im supposed to be macho abt this and not fear insects but after facing flying cicadas and cockroaches in my life, i have learnt to be wary.

kwok is still looming in the background. i need to do work soon. i feel like THE STUDENT. as in the poem one.

hmmm i guess the day ended well. i hope things get better from now on. i dont wanna lead a life of misery. ccc was telling us today abt the japanese author in kinokuniya. mwhahahaha! poor thing actually. unpublished and desperate and all. huanna shum and i were laughing like mad. tell us more cheng! yeah so all that laughter really made me forgo all worries for awhile. sometimes we need each other that much. i rmbr this quote frm The Hours: "that's what we do. People live for each other" how true.

hey one day i really wanna go on stage again. i wanna act again i miss being on stage ahhh. yeah call me desperate or attention seeking but i mean who doesnt want a bit of the spotlight now and then. hmm. i feel like u know, im fading into the shadows. haha dunno lah not that im greedy or anything im really just wanting to be loved. u know. like the audience loves me and i love them and we love everybody. Chicago is magical. i need to hear the soundtrack soon again.

oh yeah we had Cavour presentation and in the end it didnt amount to much. went to Pek Shan Ting for Bak Kut Teh and it was quite okay i guess. tho not so spicy as preferred. joy has a terrible impersonation of all artists alike. she only sounds good doing macy gray. haha. hmmm ramu is going for Rp3 too! and im beginning to like his music. hafta update my Zen library soon.

oh freak i despise pple who snub my music taste ok. haha what i mean is- how dare you you fool. haha ok thats still quite nasty. but seriously i feel blessed to like what i like. this is what mike just said when i asked him if he liked Nelly Furtado.

m!ke the picture of D_____ G___ says:
i used to like her
m!ke the picture of D_____ G___ says:
until she disappeared from the music scene
m!ke the picture of D_____ G___ says:
how can you like smoeone nonexistent

tsk tsk how dare you mike. thats so shallow. its precisely when theyre not popular at that moment that makes their music sound so much better and easier to appreciate without the biasness around you to judge their music by. you know, private appreciation. alone. sometimes we discover stuff alone. like right now im alone with bonnie mckee. still all alone. im waiting. haha im thankful for good music in my life. to me nelly furtado rocks. and so do all the faded and forgotten stars, i will always rmbr in my heart.

okay the OWE list:

i owe:
lawrence= $8
nasty= $40
liyana= kelly clarkson cd
some people= four cds (i will never know when i will get to return it, and that day is coming so soon it really tosses me up inside again. one day u will understand. my feelings have nothing to be feared i was just simply what i was and what i am- complicated)

people owe me:
clifton= 10cts
alan= red book
denise= slap her she's french vcd
huanna= travis cd
junyi= swordfish tape
maxi= ashlee cd

its late. im excited abt next week let it not be in vain. may my wishes come true. all my wishes.

it doesnt matter what anyone thinks it is what you think. and i wonder how things can just go on so naturally like its doesnt bother you anymore. how could it be. one day i hope. all things will clear up and ill be able to be more carefree in making friends.

there's a shadow in the sky
but it looks like rain
and shit is gonna fly
once again
and i dont mean to rain on your parade
but pathos has got me once again
and i dont want ambivalence no more
and i dont want ambivalence no more... ...

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