otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

CREATEUR ALLEY

Alan Cheng Chai Jun Yi JonK Nash Zee Breakfast! Snee Navjote We Spank Shirin Christine Shumin Jean Trixia Victor Kenny Liyana Jo Jun Sheng Ajit Shib Yam Alps Mike Aparna Sarah Stef Jasmine Shimin Reuben Ziing

January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 December 2006 January 2007 March 2007 December 2007 January 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 October 2008 October 2009

Sunday, April 17, 2005
the entry of worry

ok first up im incredibly worried about what hodge said at the talk for parents.
shu-min: bad news! hodge said the first day interviewees were too stiff and didn't let our personalities show!
it seems that we were not really impressive and according to huanna our answers to the "why rjc" question were less than inspiring.
for one i guess that was one of my weakest question but gosh to think that we didnt make an impact as a whole? im really shocked. even if its not for myself, for the rest who went on the first day. man, what more could we have done? i really tried my best so i guess as ccc and trix put it, i shld not worry. somehow everyone else seems more zen than me. gee i dunno maybe im just not too confident in myself.
please let me get the scholarship!
and please let the class stay together!

ok. so i havent really done as much this weekend. except learnt a little more about photoshop. and more about sandman. ive done half of PW, more or less finish with the design part of RA interview preparation, read Seasons of Mists [Sandman Volume IV], done econs tys mcq (so many queries in my head argh!), bought new shoes (yayy) -- oh wait, that's it?

ok so now im left with 2 position papers, the article part of RA mag, my other library books (alan moore rocks!), the economistsssssssss (overdue copies), PW, silas marner journal, uniform shirt size 15 to buy, blaaaaa.

somehow, no matter what i do, i always feel like im behind the game. i'll never catch up i guess. not totally. more stuff will keep coming.

this is a worry-filled entry. and that does not bode well. why can't i be super positive?!

i want to be smart, successful, rich, famous maybe, popular, humble, good natured, powerful, charming, magical, perfect- all at once. why can't i be that? or believe that i am?

okok and i need to upload more songs to my zen micro because ive been neglecting it.

suddenly i feel the urge to hang out with friends and not care about work. or maybe, sleep alone forever...

and now as i sit here i wonder, who are the five people i will meet in heaven?

8:52 AM