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Thursday, March 24, 2005
the sound of white

today was an emotional day.
in fact, the past few days have been as such. so much for myself, much more for others.
monday school was slack considering the teachers didnt really wanna do much. the whole week seemed slack, in prospect.
tuesday came and it was posting. woke up at 3pm and checked. got rj. amidst my taking-it-for-granted-ness that was when i realized that pple like liyana, zul, yam, mag etc. didnt get what they wanted. panic! worry! stress!
so came the appeals and most got thru im so happy for liyana esp when the odds seemed against her- the trend for arts was that humans students mostly got thru appeal. but mag is still struggling i really hope she gets to see hodge soon! it'll be alrite. i want her to know that and get that...
wednesday was O2 and i was so enthu at first rocking to the band but then i realized that the magic just wasnt there. it was downhill from there. mass exodus. it really put our dodging and escaping skills to the test.
a word on O2.
O2 was doomed for failure from the start- Discuss.
I agree with the statement to a large extent. 1) poor AV and yet nothing was done- without communication u are nothing. chaos takes over and discipline falters. 2) past legacy of 02- enough said. 3) uninspiring methods of leading- OGLs were GREAT people i know that (albeit some of them being horrifically revolting poseurs) but they just didnt click it. there was no real drive to push us to our limits, but even if there was, the fourth point being 4) j1s attitude- pple felt they cld slack off cuz its their frens after all. but imagine how they actually feel? humilated? disappointed? they worked really hard! but the results had to dismay them. i wld think that it wld be even more successful cuz we just have each other to play and mess around with. i was wrong.
i must declare to those stubborn souls and ignorant fools that i am in no way a despot to my OG nor to 02. that is crap. how long can u smile and put up with it when ur OG is down to 3 pple? i left. felt redundant. foolish. much as i hated to lie to kevin and desert the remaining followers. i just cldnt. its not my fault damnit. and this is in no way some excuse so accept it freaks.
and then comes the question of another fool who tried to argue that o2 is a good idea. i dont think so. go revise ur hmwk. the model answer states it was doomed frm the start.
i empathize with my frens who are OGLs but the circumstances took over. there was nothing they could do. the pity comes in that they had to put on a smile. and diligently set up all the games and all. sigh. whatever for? half the school are ingrates. i will exclude myself from this term cuz i just followed my heart and at least i give a shit abt their feelings, unlike those crappers who just leave w/o flinching. suckers. u probably dont deserve to be in this school. u know how many GOOD pple appeal and didnt make it? all YOUR faults. taking up space. go to hell lah dont deserve it at all. if i cld pick the pple rj wld be a perfect place. i wld eliminate and eradicate:
1) excessively ostensive poseurs (who shld be shot cuz they dont use the mirror correctly)
2) stupid bimboic/himbotic despos who are unfortunately rich enough to pay (oops i meant PAVE) their way through $ and hyperlinks.
3) people who are their irritating selves without trying to stifle any offensive traits but still get accepted by the majority cuz they feel they are 'nice'. buckets for puking. irritating irritants who irritate irritatingly. im sorry if ure irritating at that moment ure gone to i wld freeze u if i cld.
4) people who have a self-instated and self-imposed sense of superiority over others- go to hell because I am the only one who has the right to feel that way so screw off you wannabe. kiss my raven black ass and wipe my ass with your shirt after that cuz ur not-so-rubious lips are dirt ratios.
5) basically anyone whom i dont like even if your face is horrid vamoose! i will orb u away. or smthing. my face is horrid but at least im trying to get plastic surgery done here so shut up and go do your own face in. if u cant then there's always the toilet bowl and its nice little depression. go hide it there the moisture might do it some good.
now where was i. ok so today im so happy and so sad. so happy cuz i broke away from my og to take photos for storyline, which was perfect due to excellent performances and directions by dani, gwenlyn, just, jo, junyi, nash, huiwen, ying, zul, ronnie and of course crowd favourite cheng chai. mwhahaha im glad he cld revise some red cross stuff that was hilarious. the whole cast was amazing i thought they did the less-than spectacular script a great service and even lifted it up to a whole new standard. classic moments include nash's evil laughs- top notch, ronnie's coughing- im surprised his alveoli havent burst, ok joking, tho mine probably have, junyi's cool dude pose- this 'poseur' is welcomed anytime man haha, zul and pandy's dancing- mwhahaha, huiwen aka phoebe's funny wand movements and her 'light as the ocean' confession, ccc's drama entrance as the doctor/nurse with the long flowing sash headband and kicking the bucket, literally... so many more im glad i got them down on camera. good fight scenes and in front it was all funny to watch. too bad for the peeps at the back. prob cldnt hear sigh.
oh yes we found out today that joycelene moonlights as a tuition teacher! huiwen actually got her cool! how small is the world? ok maybe just this country.
word of the week: "unscrupulous" by goh junyi

council alert! we interrupt you to inform u of your interview this monday bla bla bla.
with what i typed above, all that shit which wasnt really me talking but my bad mood, i prob wont get thru. whee shant bother. just hope i dont forget. if they kick me out i wld be numb cuz right now i dont know whether i really want it or not. see how lah. oh yeah, world peace.
speaking of which!!! Crystal Kang on Miss Spore Universe is Jonathan Kang's cousin! (cheeer)
this came minutes after paparazzi correspondent clifton chiang stumbled into the headquarters with this news. so far, 50 pple know. please spread the word around to show our support for the Kang family thank you.

back from commercials, carwash.
it was supposed to be fun but in the end i had the worst time of the day. dunno why its probably my own fault. when i get irritable i snap at pple and stuff and become solo-fied. didnt talk much didnt play with water like them but i wish i cldve. i must be nicer and clear my mind next time. dont know whats getting to me. such instability is disgusting esp when u cant explain it yourself. then who's to blame in the end. because of that ive prob said a lot of nasty things today which i thoroughly regret. forgive me pple.
flashback. whether u likemy blogging style is non of your business you freak.
here i go again.
coffee bean was fun!!! we shld do it more often!!! i really had the time of my life before today came and ruined all good thoughts in me. now im vengeful and angsty. i really felt comfortable and happy and honest there i miss u guys and the talking already. for that, even tho sometimes u guys can get on my nerves too (and vice versa, i know), thanks jonK, junyi and alan!!! hopefully one day we get more pple. but then quarrels might start again and all that childish cursing and bla bla bla. sometimes i wonder how many pple i can actually handle at one time.
hmm alright. i realize i get jealous of others quite easily.
envy is my vice. i dont even feel apologetic abt it just that i wanted to say it. i wish i cld be better.
american idol wise, carrie underwood better not win and more imptly better not sell more than kelly clarkson, or i'll shave her.
p.s. i know my hair sucks big time now wait for it to grow a little ok? one of these days ill settle with a hat.
p.s. submitted my illustration for the NNI thing. hope i get it.
p.s. dont judge me for this entry. you dont know who you're messing with. goodbye.

when the going gets tough, the tough gets missy.

The Sound Of White by Missy Higgins

Like a freeze-dried rose, you will never be,
what you were, what you were to me in memory.
But if I listen to the dark,
you'll embrace me like a star,
envelope me, envelope me...
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me to before you went away
- if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me back to the tune
we played before you went away.

And if I listen to, the sound of white,
sometimes I hear your smile,
and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white ..
You're my mystery. One mystery. My mystery. One mystery.

My silence solidifies,
until that hollow void erases you,
erases you so I can't feel at all.
But if I never fell again,
at least that nothingness will end the painful dream,
of you and me...
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me to before you went away, if only for a day.
If things get real for me down here,
promise to take me back to the tune we played before you went away.

And if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breath your light.
And if I listen to, the sound of white.

I knelt before some strangers face,
I'd never have the courage or belief to trust this place,
But I dropped my head, 'cos it felt like lead,
And I'm sure I felt your fingers through my hair...

And if I listen to, the sound of white
sometimes I hear your smile, and breathe your light.
Yeah if I listen to, the sound of white.
The sound of white,
The sound of white,
The sound of white.

7:37 AM