otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

Ashlee Simpson, Big Fish, Just Shoot Me, Red, Tomato, Blueberry Cheesecake, Rockstar

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Friday, March 11, 2005
a never ending sleep

living in a nightmare
a never ending sleep
now that i am wide awake
my chains are finally free
dont feel sorry for me

whee! another hectic week comes to a close. seems too fast. all of a sudden term 1 has ended. crazy i tell you. ive just been so tired recently anyhow. cant function properly. fencing and homework and artclub and ra mag and pe arent helping much either. they make life interesting, all these stuff, but sheesh is this what i want? a busy excitement? or should i just sit back and soak in the passing moments? ooh i dunno. plus with council i really dunno what it'll be like. jonk and i were saying smthing abt preparing for campaigning but think of it we might not even get to there. and do i really want it? i dunno. this brings me to pearls and politics. firstly, pearls has been booted so yayy for all those slackers and yayy still for those enthu ones. i dont think we shld do stuff just for points. itll all look good on the testi anw so heck. i want my life to be as enriching as possible. not gonna make the same mistake again. hmm. sigh.

now on to politics. sticky politicky stuff going on how crap is that. and the thing is i didnt even see it coming! gosh for pete's sake everyone's a friend not a competitor. i think the each for his own theory is pure hogwash though it might have seemed so. i dont think not calling someone along means we are deliberately excluding him, thats for sure. anyhow, i just find it so ridiculous that we are trying to find clues to accuse each other of being pompous or being a loser or being a childish prick. all of that- SHUT UP. really. no that does not mean im angry cuz im not. im just tired haha. you know. so much messy stuff in a messy week and i mean- for what? no use right? come on! we didnt mean what you think. and for those who put down pple incessantly, yes i think that has got to stop cuz it doesnt help clear misunderstandings at all. just makes u more susceptible to accusations and flying daggers. better to be a precious pig than a pompous person. so really, i myself may have seemed bitter at the 'betrayal' of my own cuz of the 'not nominating' and all cuz i 'nominated you' and all but really deep down it didnt matter. to me i just found it puzzling. how come? you know, since we had an agreement. do i think he's selfish? no! do i look at him differently? no! only that i realize he is more ambitious than i thought (that's why we didnt ask him in the first place, see, not just a blind assumption) and i respect him more for that if anything. same goes for you too. i respect your determination but please dont let it be fueled by a mere lust for revenge or proving that you will outdo the other. its a crab vs the balloon fish with the sharp pincers and the thorny spines. the crab has a strong shell, thinking the balloon fish wants to poke it, while the balloon fish inflates, thinking the crab wants to pinch it. then what happens? the balloon fish becomes easier to poke cuz of large surface area and bursts like a balloon- all because he felt threatened by the scary red shield of the crab. so you see, under the sea, let's swim with the currents but never shall we turn into prey and predator. silly really. me too. im silly to have been caught up in that moment of excitement. sigh. if u think of it, its quite embarassing if this got out. its here for all to see, but at least i believe we are sorting it out. mature individuals- why shld we gou xin dou jiao and hu xiang qing ya? okay i cant believe i just rmbrd those cheem words but u get the drift. so lalala- let it be, let it be!!!!

and also, i think that all the bitterness stems not onlyfrom that event itself, but from an ancient tension long existent between the two. never getting along cuz of conflicting ideologies and conflicting methods. its fine that you dont approve of each other but i dont see why not when the rest of us can accept u both. it is silly. are we kicking up a fuss just for the sake of doing so? if so, then quit it. not worth it. i should know. and what was the paranoid claim that that person was telling something to the other guy? its so freaky you know. irrational judgments taking over and blinding the mind. i really think it is time some remedy is applied. and only the two of you can do it. its obvious you two mind each other and i hear things from both of you abt each other and u know what? i agree to some extent so accept that we are not perfect ourselves and embrace!!!

ok im drowzzzzy. had a meaningful last week of school and i guess it aptly wraps up term 1- no more honeymoon after this i guess. but anyhow, its still fun to have that ultimate frisbee pe lesson (aside from soccer again), kwok's birthday 'celebration' with all the singing and laughing and that last minute effort at a card, which turned out quite nice and appreciated by his colleagues hahaha...and then rolly's idiots-morons-scumbags-imbeciles game which was so spontaneous and suspense-filled and humourous and informative all at the same time whoah brain wave of excitment really really cool week! i found myself having more discipline in class. still trying to pay close attention to reeves and kwok and i find it paying off cuz we learn a lot. though kwok disappoints by saying much of what's already in his very comprehensive notes. hmmm. finally completed the silas marner video too and everybody agreed that Eppie was just so cute as a baby hahaha. perry didnt really do much this week but she was real nice, as usual. cant wait for her to return all the work we've done. in fact, cant wait for all the teachers to return any work we've done, even ms. lui with her math test haha. how interesting. that math test i wld be thankful to get over 20. and hmmm mcconnell is really opening up as a genuinely nice man though he seems stricter but really i guess the teachers are mostly fussy but once u follow their rules they tend to become more lax and familiar with you they become friendly and all so warm. cant wait to see mcconnell perform in 12th Nite haha that wld be a show not to be missed! oh! and avril! and simple plan! so many stuff to watch, to do! the art sculpture competition! art club noticeboard! math hmwk! hist hmwk! econs essay! othello essay! ra mag design! ra mag article! read silas marner (oops)! read great expectations! read Economist(s)! oh freak i really have so much to do! plus o2 storyline! plus going out class party and og outing and movie/tabletennis/badminton with secschool frens and stuff freak so much to do one week is just too little time. haha alright i solemnly promise not to procrastinate and i will thoroughly enjoy myself this holiday while completing excellent work in excellent time!

so much for positivity! go man!

p.s. went back to ri track n field meet today and the atmosphere was fantastic- homely and all and sigh i wish i was part of it. cldnt help feeling like an outsider intruding in on their precious space but haha had fun anyhow just watching and supporting and sharing the thrill with ms grace and mrs chong and some others of the comm and the whole moor house in fact. in the end moor clinched second! not too shabby considering its an improvement right?!?! bayley shattered hullet's record by winning the championship. oh well, moor will rise to the occasion. in time to come, we shall win again, go moor!!! really glad how spirited the current comm is i guess all the psyching up helped us win as well. i mean, if the psycho part isnt there, there aint no winning fer ya! haha! whee! i wanna get those moor tshirts anw damn cool the other houses also exceptionally nice designs. buckley and bayley got bandannas haha copycats! alright after that i skipped fencing yet again cuz it was too late to go take attendance so i scooted home in the bus after talking to jonK along the way to j8. haha. sigh. let's go out soon guys! cant wait for social gatherings in the hols. i love my class a lot now i dont want it to change really. :] you guys simply rawk lah i dont know what i wld do without u. let's just not get sick of each other and allow the spirit to die out!

p.s. with all that said, i have finally blogged a long entry and am currently tired but still alert enough to type this little trivia composition of mine own:
The Ashlee Simpson Sentence
"There is nothing new about your unreachable autobiography casting an undiscovered shadow on the pieces of me, so before you start giving it all away and making it harder everyday, please love me for me as lala and not love makes the world go round, and i'm better off having to surrender to you."
oh yeah! i love ashleeeee for her dazzling green eyes. too sexyyy and wayyy too cute....

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