otamot

Mot: means witty saying. Short for Mote (speck of dust), reverse of Tom (Cruise), which is in turn short for Tomato.

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Sunday, January 23, 2005
wasted weekend

honestly i cant really bear to anticipate any outcome.
i really hope im not really a screwed reject.
its just not fair. not to me it isnt.
i really gave my best, which i reckon is better than some others.
i dont think its right for others to be let in based on previous experience.
i believe i have so much more to offer than the many others out there.
so why wont they call me? im damn despo now.
i sound whiney. but id like to think it isnt my fault.
i didnt claim to screw up like those pple so why did they get in and not i?
hmm...now i understand how it is to fail an audition. the feeling sucks man.
big time. now i dunno where to turn. i was mentally prepared but never really had a backup plan.
so how now? spamming sign-ins on msn aint gonna help me. i hafta help myself.
i thank ge0rge for opening up when he didnt need to. i hate myself for wanting pity- when it came i wasnt ready.
well im alone now. again. a new week begins and i regret lotsa stuff i did and did not do. i wasted my weekend. blimey. life is messy.

8:05 AM